Hyderabad Journals, Part 1!

Hello Readers! Well, I really shouldn't call myself a 'Travel Blogger', because I travel once or mostly twice a year. But, whenever I do, I ALWAYS make sure it's up on the blog! Writing about travel is my second favourite thing to do, the first being writing fiction! So, after 1.5 years of travel slump, (I know, Oh My God, how did I survive without travelling so long!), I finally visited Hyderabad! It was a short four-day trip with family. Basically, in those four days, I slept for 2 days (hotel room, flights, cabs, name it) because I don't get to sleep when I'm not on vacation. So, tip: When on vacation, SLEEP!

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So, what to expect from my recent travel posts?

1. 3 Posts in total, 2 posts about the places & 1 post about hotel, food & tips!

2. LOADS of photos. (Few of mine.)

3. Probably a few (or many) rants!

So, I hope you're ready!

On Day 1 & Day 4, I was lazying around in the comfy hotel bedroom. So, here goes my adventurous touristy travel journal on Day 2! On this day, I covered all the places located in Hyderabad city. I went to 5 main places namely, Salar Jung Museum, Chowmahalla Pallace, Charminar, Golconda Fort & Hussain Sagar lake! Here we go. I hope you enjoy the trip!

Salar Jung Museum:

Salar Jung museum is one of the largest museums in the world & it really was because it took forever for me to explore all of it! There are so many forms of art stored there that you cannot leave the place unsatisfied. You'll find statues, paintings, artefacts, carvings, sculptures, ceramics, manuscripts, carpets & the list goes on... What is more impressive is that this collection ranges from 2nd century B.C. to 20th century A.D.  & is collected from all over the world. Amazed? So was I!

As for the history, this gallery is dedicated to the family of Salar Jung. It was a family tradition to acquire precious art objects, which then so wonderfully transformed into such a beautiful museum preserving all that the royal family believed & storing art, more than everything else!

You can check out more about Salar Jung Museum on their official website.

Innovative Walking Sticks!
There was an entire room to display such different types of walking sticks. The purpose is not just to use it as a walking aid, but also to serve as a decorative accessory & defensive weapon. The above are the ones I loved! In the form of a skull, faces of dogs and lastly footwear. This exquisite collection was one different aspect that I found in the Salar Jung museum.

Manuscripts & seals.
 There were many rooms wherein manuscripts & books were kept which were in various different languages, hardly legible. There were also many books about medicine which was surprising. Medical knowledge written in Sanskrit.

Wine glasses.
There was a lot of collection of silverware & other cutlery from the SalarJung family. Most of it was everyday items, but these glasses caught my eye & hence, here they are!

For the love of Game of Thrones!!
I think there were many rooms wherein weapons were kept; there were SO MANY! Swords, shields, knives, armors!! There was a 6 ft 5 inches statue of a soldier, which if you ask me, felt a lot like Jamie Lannister! It was in a protected glass though, so I couldn't take a good enough picture! But, both of us, my brother & I just loved these sections!

Chowmahalla Palace:

This might sound cliche, but I don't care. I LOVE palaces! I love the feeling of royalty, huge doors, never-ending hallways, fancy chandeliers, embroidered carpets, vastness of gardens & just a fairy tale life! I absolutely love it. Who wouldn't? Every time I have visited a palace, I get lost in the grandiosity of it & am never able to stop thinking about the kind of lifestyle Kings & Queens must’ve had. Apart from all the stress about fighting wars, of course.

Still, end note, I love palaces!

So, Chowmahalla Palace consists of 4 palaces that belonged to the Nizams of Hyderabad. It has since been meticulously restored. This was one of my favourites in the entire trip. It reminded me of the time I had visited Mysore Palace & I was just as mesmerized, even more! 

You can check out more about Chowmahalla Palace on their official website.

The Throne.

his is the throne where the King used to sit. I mean, look at it! White marble everywhere carved so beautifully with chandeliers hanging around the large hall. I'm just glad that this history & culture is preserved, because at times like these, we actually value it. 

This is one of my favourite images! I had even kept it as my mobile wallpaper, to be honest! The strong pillar with beautiful carvings that are hard to understand. I think that's how a woman should be; strong, beautiful & hard to understand. Okay, that was off-topic.

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Charminar:

Char means four and minar means pillar. So, you can see from the architecturally magnificent structure, how Charminar stands. When we visited, it was being reconstructed or something on those lines. And as it is located in a very busy area, we couldn’t stop there, but surely took a few clicks on route!
Its architecture is again fabulous, which is one of reasons why we wanted to see it for ourselves!

Golcondo Fort:

Golconda fort was among another one of my favourites. After palaces, FORTS are my second favourite places to be. I can almost hear my brother roll his eyes at this, that's because I hate to climb all the way up, but I still love the feeling of being on a fort. It somehow makes me feel braver, in a way, because of its history perhaps. And, even though the climb is tough, the view is worth everything!

I was running short on time, so I decided to start climbing the fort. I did not ask for a guide, because I’m never sure about their stories or authenticity. But, it’d have been fun to know some secret ways in & out the fort or something exciting! There are simple stairs which you need to climb, nothing too adventurous on this one, unless if there are any secret pathways.

Anyway, have a look!

Mom & Dad!

That’s my younger brother, Ashwin! (He loves trekking.)

View from Top!
You can see the sidelines of the fort on the bottom & then there's the view of Hyderabad city above!

I promise I wasn't wearing black all the time.. Just like 78% of the time.

Group Photo!

In the entire trip, we took only 2 good group selfies. You're blessed with one of them, thank you!

Hussain Sagar Lake:

This one is another amazing place & not to be missed! You'd think it's just another lake, but I assure you that you MUST visit it anyway! It is huge! It is spread across an area of 5.7 square kilometres. Ignoring the traffic on the street behind, if you spend some time here, it feels really peaceful! I love lakes & oceans & beaches too. So obviously I had to love this one!

I read this on wiki & thought of sharing, because it's so touching! Hussain Sagar is a heart-shaped lake. The King at the time built it for people's drinking facility & this was an act out of love! So, that was some impressive story!

Day View.

Night View.

Love Hyderabad!
This was the selfie point, so obviously it was really crowded. The letters in red are written in Devnagri saying 'Love' followed by 'HYD'.

I had to take this one!

So, I think I started at the museum around 11:30 AM & covered everything up to the lake by 7 PM! The hotel was really far away from the main city area which is why it took around one to 1.5 hours to reach the city. This was the main problem due to which I couldn't stay at every place as much as I wanted to. And we couldn't cover all the places as well, due to time constraints. But, whichever chosen places we visited were really worth it & I enjoyed this day the most!!

Have you visited Hyderabad? Which among the above are your favourites or any others? Tell me in the comments below!
Stay tuned & I'll post about my experience at Ramoji Film City next Wednesday!!

Festive Spirits on & off the road! (Daily Commute #5)

Hello Readers! This post is going to be a little bit in sync with the festive spirit that's going on here in India! We had Navratri in the past week, which is a Hindu festival celebrated for nine nights to worship Goddesses. Here's a little commute story on that!

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There are so many festivals celebrated in India & the frequency is really high, so there's always something or the other coming up! Like, how in USA, the span from Thanksgiving to New Year is, it is like that in India throughout the year, I suppose! Crazy, right!? So, we had Navratri from 21st September to 29th September this year. The amazing thing about this festival is that on every day, there is a colour decided, so if you have that colour of clothes or anything else & you want to be in an all-festive mood, then you can get on with it & MANY people do it. Especially women!

So, one of the days, the colour was red & it was so ... I don't even have a word for it! I stepped into the train compartment & 90% of the ladies were in RED! Be it formals, dresses or even sarees! It felt like I belonged in the group & that I was a part of something. At one point I even thought that it was like a flash mob situation & everyone would get up & start singing & dancing. Because, I was that excited with that blood red!

On one of the other days, I was in train & it was decorated from the inside. There were garlands & those sparkly wires we use in birthday celebrations tied up on the walls & ceiling. There were a few posters with the photo of a Goddess with the text, "Happy Navratri." In the hustle & bustle of everyday commute, who would have even done that? And who would have thought of it in the first place!? It really baffled me how people can go overboard for festivals!

And lastly, how can I forget about yesterday! There are many places in the city where there are stages placed & an idol of goddess is there for people to pray. While I was returning from work at night, I saw this one place. The entire street was decorated with colourful lights hung from trees. There was a band playing as well. I saw the idol of Goddess there & it was really beautiful. Even though it was around 11 PM, I just stopped for a while & waited there to pray. And again, in that moment, as I was looking at the Goddess, there were people in some distance praying, there was devotional music playing & in that moment, again, I felt that sense of belonging.

I might not be as devoted as others when it comes to festivals.

I might not follow everything religiously all times.

I might not know all the words to the prayers.

But, I do know what it means to believe in something & I'm grateful for that.



Source: Suruchi Kulkarni

September Roundup!

Hello Readers! I'm so happy with my first month of blogging post redefining goals!

15 Posts in 1 Month!

I think that's my personal best. I have posted a Daily Commute post on every Monday & a Diary Logs post on every Friday! And as for Mindscape Reviews, I haven't posted quite as much. But, it has been a bit difficult to get reading time to do book reviews. Whereas Omkar & I are still working through our TV reviews. So, since it’s a collaboration & even though we have similar thoughts, we get lazy. So, I'm a bit behind in Mindscape Reviews! But, all in all, it's going good & I'm happy with my progress!!

Here are some of my favourite posts in each series!

Flooding Through Life! This one's from Daily Commute.

Dude, Look What You Made Me Do. This one's from Diary Logs.

So Relatable. This is another one from Diary Logs.

Farewell is another favourite as is No Major Missing from this series!

Okay, I'm just saying that all the posts from Diary Logs are my favourites! So, just go & read them all! You won't regret it!

The One with F.R.I.E.N.D.S This one's from Mindscape Reviews.

And of course, the highlight post & another favourite was Behind the Scenes of Blog Redesign!

I hope you enjoy reading them, if you haven't already!!

As for October,

I'm planning to maintain a similar schedule in addition to a few TRAVEL POSTS which I hope you guys will enjoy!

All the love!

So Relatable. (Diary Logs #4)

Hello Readers! This is a post about when you read something or listen to something or watch something & find it way too relatable to your own story. So, in a way it's a post for you to relate about relating to things!

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Dear Diary,

The other day I watched 'Thirteen Reasons Why'. I watched all 13 episodes in one go. Not a brilliant move for such a sad show. Needless to say, I liked it. There are so many incidents in it that hit home. The way Justin uses Hannah & spreads rumours about her. The way you are best friends one day, but strangers the next, blaming them for your death. The way everybody gets bullied in high school. The way how you should've spoken up & about missed opportunities. You start to feel depressed & suicidal even when you're perfectly happy in your own life. And yet, your happy self starts to relate to the story & you go back to your past high school days to feel all the sadness.

Another day I read 'The Kite Runner' by Khaled Hosseini. And Oh my God! It touched my heart & soul! That book is about friendship, family & love. It also stresses on how differences in class & status can ruin friendships. This happens with so many people. Just because of family constraints, you have to stop being friends with someone who understands you on a whole different level. Friends are the family we choose, then why do we need approval of society in it? Leave us alone, because at the end of it, only we are going to be there for each other, after surviving through your rumours. I weep thinking about that one quote, "For you, a thousand times over."

The other day I listened to 'Doubt' by Mary J. Blige. If you haven't heard it yet, you MUST. Its lyrics are so powerful. I listen to it whenever I feel low & it always lifts my spirits. It's one of the favourites in my Brave Playlist. The chorus really gets to me every time! 

“I made it to the end,
I nearly paid the cost,
I lost a lot of friends,
I sacrificed a lot,
I'd do it all again,
'Cause I made it to the top,
I can't keep doubting myself anymore.”

So, be it books or television or music or any random thing in the universe, there is ALWAYS something that will make you relate to it. And maybe that is the only feeling we need sometimes. To not feel alone. Just knowing that some stranger somewhere is feeling the exact same thing that you are feeling makes you less lonely. And in that moment, from one stranger to another stranger, it'a a butterfly effect, maybe that's all you need. And for that moment, it is enough.

Behind the Scenes : Redesign!

Hello lovelies!! Here's the much awaited post about the story behind my blog redesign! On 2nd September this year, Mindscape in Words completed 3 years! This time, I decided to make a few changes in the blog. Before I proceed to the redesign aspect & telling you about the complete roller coaster of a ride, let me take a minute & tell you how grateful I am for YOU!! If it weren't for you all; readers, followers, fellow bloggers & well-wishers, then, I wouldn't have been where I am today. So, a big THANK YOU with a BIG SMILE!! Also, #BloggersSupportBloggers

So, I was held up with college, exams & life the past 2 years because of which I couldn't blog much. And, now I'm caught up in my job a lot of the time. So, there's never going to be time. I’ll just have to make some. Pulling all-nighters, cutting my sleep time & then drinking espressos all day long in office. So, that's what’s happening now that I have decided to not give up on blogging & keep up with it along with everything else that goes on in life. After all, what's the point of anything, if I stop writing?

So, all of it began with an end. The end of my Monday Moments series after publishing 100 POSTS! I knew I needed something new & so I started talking with Aishwarya Deshpande. Yes, we both share the same name & we're both very talented. Thank you very much, haha. It all began when she told me that she had some time to make a logo & remake the cover photo for Mindscape in Words. I was super excited & soon that one little task turned into a whole BIG PROJECT.

 

Planning Out Content:

I told her about one of the series which I was sure about - Daily Commute. She thought it could be really interesting. Then, I talked to Omkar Vaidya about doing TV Show reviews & he came on-board immediately! Since I was already into book reviews, I was also excited about TV Show reviews. And soon, later on, Aishwarya was the one who came up with the title 'Mindscape Reviews'. And I was like, "YES! That's brilliant!!" So that was how the second series was born. And the third one, was pretty simple. I love creative writing about feelings & emotions. So, it was a no-brainer about the Diary Logs series. So, here we are, with 3 series, Daily Commute, Mindscape Reviews & Diary Logs.

Planning Out Photos:

Once the series were decided, we had to plan cover photos for each series. On a Friday morning, we decided to take photos for the Daily Commute series, before I left for office. And I cannot tell you how hilarious it was! We took shots on the railway station, in the train, bus station, in the metro, metro station! It was such a great time spent!

Here are some of my favourites from that photo shoot!

As for the Mindscape Reviews photo shoot, I did it by myself, with some help from dad & brother. I needed a lot of books to portray the book reviews. And I needed my laptop or TV to portray the TV Show reviews in it. So, somehow, I managed to setup everything! I cannot forget the endless video calls Aishwarya & I had till late night, because we needed everything done perfectly!

Here are the ones that didn't make the cover photo, but are still cute!

On 2nd September:

Finally, the day arrived. After many weeks of promotion & hyping up about a redesign & what not, I was ready to post! Except, nothing was ready! I was freaking out! Aishwarya was still finalising the logo. The cover was not AT ALL ready! The cover photos were ready, but they were without texts! Everything was such a disaster! I must say, I had totally lost it. Hour after hour, Aish sent me modified version of the logo. And we finally decided on this one. 'M' for Mindscape & 'W' for Words, kind of forming a reflection in water & some pebbles for a beach effect.

Another couple hours later, randomly she sent me this cover photo, which wasn't even our actual idea! But, it felt so amazing that I was just like, "Yes! This is the one!" We did not change the original turquoise & orange theme. But, in the cover, we added water & the board in the background. So, the entire look kind of felt like a beach & made me from a frowny person to a happy person. Because, well, BEACH!! And beach is blue & orange. So, it all perfectly added up & I was smiling ear to ear. In all this, I decided to add text to Mindscape Reviews whereas soon later Aish added text to Daily Commute & Diary Logs!

And, then, finally, after hours & weeks of working, the moment arrived. All changes were made. 3rd Blogiversary post was up. And it was successful! New journey had begun!

  

So, Aishwarya, thank you so much for helping me out with everything, tolerating my nonsense, understanding my mood swings, being an awesome friend & a perfect designer! As promised, you got your dinner, babe. A Lannister always pays his (her) debts! LOL. (I'm a Targaryen, though.)

I hope you guys enjoyed reading through the blog redesign story! Is it always like this? Share your experiences as well!

 You can know about why I started my blog & the meaning behind Mindscape in Words here.

And, you can check out my 3rd Anniversary post here!

That Awesome Auto Ride. (Daily Commute #4)

Hello Readers! I'm enjoying writing some of the random, funny & unexpected situations that happen on my daily commute to work. I observed that I covered my metro & train story, so I thought I'd share one of the short thoughts about an auto ride in Andheri.





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One day, I reached the metro station near my office. I was a bit late & I had to take an auto rickshaw from metro station to my office. After a lot of usual rejections & waiting, I got one. From the first look, I had an "Oh no!" in my mind. That was because an old man with a white beard, wrinkly face & white clothes was driving the rickshaw. I thought that he will drive slowly making me even late for work! But as I didn't have an option, I sat in. I was rummaging through something in my bag, and there he took off!! He was speeding, better than most other drivers half his age. He was driving the vehicle like he had years of experience in it. He was such an expert. There we went cutting through traffic with songs blasting from his phone.

Then, I observed the insides of the vehicle. They were neon yellow & green. In the front, he had a few logos in metal which were golden in colour. There was a king logo that I could recognise. There was also a little pouch to keep his phone. He also had charging points! I mean, how rarely do you find that in a rickshaw? There I was sitting in this old man's rickshaw thinking that this man is cooler than I am!

First impressions really aren't anything, are they? Perceptions, imaginations, thoughts, judgements.  We continue with all these things, knowing how little they matter & understanding the consequences, yet there we are not able to control our own mind while it controls us...

No Major Missing. (Diary Logs #3)

Hello Readers! Here goes the third post in the diary logs post! The second one is still my favourite! Again, let me tell you all, these posts are purely fictional. Read through this one & tell me how you feel!

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Dear Diary,
I saw a photo on Instagram the other day. Two girl best friends on a road trip captioned 'Day 42'. I stared into thin air after reading that. I thought about doing it. Then I realised there isn't a single person with whom I'd want to go travel the world. Not a one. And the worst thing is I don't feel anything about it. I don't have any friends & I don't miss the ones I had. I guess travelling round the world solo would be much more fun than doing it with someone, but how would I know, I never had a best friend...

I don't miss anything anymore. Everything has changed. I'm not the same, in the least.

I have the same circle of people I had before but something has changed. I don't feel connected with them and that's fine because I don't care. I won't miss them. I haven't met a few ex-colleagues with whom I've shared a lot of moments & that's fine too because it doesn't seem to bother me.

The days when I couldn't stay still 2 days are gone. I can stay still forever, like a walking corpse & it doesn't matter. I'm not missing out living because there's nothing to it. There's no major & no missing, because there's barely anything to live, really.

I wish I was capable of human emotions like everybody else, but I guess I know better. My heart doesn't go out to a crying baby. I don't cry when anyone dies. I don't feel happy when my Amazon order comes before the expected date. I don't cringe if someone is cutting a dead or live body in films or real life. I don't feel the danger while speeding my car. I don't invest my emotions in ice cream & romantic movies, because it just doesn't make any sense. Neither do I pray or hope for a miracle, because I've seen worse & know better than to expect the unexpected.

I won't feel much if I see someone jump off a building to commit suicide. I won't feel much if I see some victims being rescued. I won't feel much about anything because whatever that can happen, has happened with me, and I have lived through whatever worst imaginations you can think of. So yes, there's no major missing. There are no feelings left. I am barely left.

Am I sane? Yes.

Am I alive? Doubtful.

Does it matter?

Kidding Around. (Daily Commute #3)

Hello Readers! I hope you're enjoying the Daily Commute series as much as I am! Just like Monday Moments, it gives me something to look forward to on a Monday. If you have any funny or weird or awkward stories to share, feel free! This one's about a naughty kid I saw the other day in the metro!





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It was another Friday evening. I wonder how my stories revolve around Fridays so much? Probably because I have to post on Monday? Perhaps! So, as usual, I was hustling my way on the metro. Usually, I don't like to stand in the doorway. I go all the way in. Unlike railways, it's really difficult to observe people in the metro. They are brightly lit. Population is less savage & more civilised. So, you can't just stare at people under the pretext of observation for a lit blog series!

Anyway, inside, there was a lady with a small child sitting. I stood in front of them as there wasn't any space elsewhere. The girl was around 5 or 6 years? I have no idea, I can never guess the age of children! She was fair & had the most beautiful curly hair tied into a ponytail. But, her hair around forehead was kind of loose & looked gloriously messy! She had large black eyes which hinted a sense of mischief, no doubt. She was wearing a two-piece pink top & pink leggings, which she totally rocked! Children these days have the most fashionable clothes! And, there I was wearing another All-Black outfit; black tee with black jeans! (I love it, though.)

Once the crowd in the metro cleared out, I got space to sit next to the little girl. But, what she saw was an open stage. She began to run up & down in the tiny space. There's this pole at multiple places to cling to for support. She clasped it for dear life & didn't let it go until the ride was over! She was swinging round & round it! Giving all of us tired folks, her best moves. She was one action-packed entertainer, I'd say! She even hit her head, but nothing bothered her. She enjoyed the attention. All eyes were on her! It was such a blast!

On days like these, I try not to think whether I was such a cool kid or shy even then. I try not to think whether she will be this happy when she grows up & this bold to live her life to the extent. I try not to think so much, because you never know. So, just for once, I enjoyed the little girl having fun, in that little moment. I made myself happy by watching her happy, on the commute, for a matter of few minutes and that's what it takes!

Dude, Look What You Made Me Do. (Diary Logs #2)

Hello Readers! Welcome to another page of the diary logs! Just to tell you all, these entries are entirely fictional & just something I came up with. There are many people struggling with a lot of things & reading something relatable always feels good & helps to make a connection. This one's about some hidden dilemmas each person faces in their love life, but probably doesn't quite perceive them in this way.

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Dear Diary,

Being human, we get dilemmas all the time. Sometimes it's as minuscule as pizza or pasta, beer or vodka, orchids or roses. But, the big life-changing decisions need so much of thinking, evaluation & analysis. Especially when it comes to love life, why does it have to be so complicated? Dating, relationships, commitments, and is there anything else I don't know about!? It's such a difficult world out there, whether you are single or committed. But, from whatever I’ve been reading in novels or watching in these many romcoms, I have come to some really abstract views about love. There's so much written about it, so many conflicting thoughts from equally important personalities that I'm quite in a pickle again. So, diary, help me, will you? Here goes, the maze in my head!

• Opposites Attract:

This one has been along for such a long time; Opposites attract! But, is attraction enough? What about after that? Connection? Emotional bonding? Feelings? And that's just one aspect of it. You can go ahead with your casual one-night stands with this 'opposites attract' philosophy. But, I'm talking about love here. The main thing is, once the ‘attraction’ fades, you focus on the 'opposite' aspect of it which then makes you realise how you're not made for each other, because all you do is argue. So, what to do? Go with your gut, or stay single for the rest of your life? Then, he make mundane statements like, "You've changed so much." And you'd actually start to question your identity, along with your self-worth. And all this time, you won't realise that he has already just 'changed his mind' from a shy & short lady of the month to a tall & curly haired lady of the month to a crazy & loud lady of the month, probably questioning her about some other mundane questions?

• You're Not an Option:

You hear this one all the time too; how to not make anyone your priority when they treat you like an option. How I'm not a backup plan or anybody's second choice! When did we we lose value for each other? When did humanity became such an abysmal sea of tears that we judge our self-worth by being another's first or second choice? Screw them. And then, on the other hand, you watch a film & the girl says, "I'll wait for you, because you're worth waiting." So, is she supposed to wait for him until he sleeps with a couple of girls and then comes back to her because apparently, she's 'marriage material’? DUDE, It doesn't work that way, at least, it shouldn't.

• In the Moment:

This is the crappiest thing, I believe. Is there ever anything that's supposed to happen at the right time? You plan & plan & plan, but whatever can go wrong, will go wrong. You want your first kiss on the beach, under the moonlight, while you're filled with dreams of the future, but instead you get sunburn & drunk depression. Are you supposed to wait for the 'perfect moment' or just go with the flow? Because you might as well wait 84 years if you decided for the 'perfect moment' to arrive. Also, you might as well be framed stupid & taunted for life if you do something 'in the moment'.

How am I supposed to function in such a complicated world?

How am I supposed to understand people’s evil mind games hidden behind their fake smiles, when I don't even understand myself?

How am I supposed to identify the ‘pack of wolves’ who are all in sheep’s clothing?

How am I supposed to move on from one person to another in a matter of a few months when people can do that in a matter of minutes?

How am I supposed to 'let it go' when people have tied me with a rope that keeps me dragging toward the past & into the grave?

How am I supposed to survive in this world where I feel a diary to be more human than any real human being I have ever met?

Tell me, dear diary...